I wasn’t always an American Citizen. In fact it wasn’t until almost 1 year ago when I became a citizen of this beautiful and special country. It took me a while to get used to the patriotism they have here because thanks to German History, patriotism in Germany didn’t exist much anymore. So coming here, and seeing how “American’s” felt about their country was something that was not easy for me to digest at first. I didn’t feel anything when I saw the American flag, I didn’t feel anything special when people got patriotic on holidays or sang the national anthem. Over the past few years though it changed big time. Something inside of me happened and I not only fell in love with the United States of America, but I started to love the history, the patriotism and especially the American Flag and what it stands for. I couldn’t believe what was happening to me, but in a very short time I turned into a super patriotic person and I now get very defensive and angry when people here (or outside the US) are disrespectful to the flag and to this country. I can feel in my heart that God Himself prepared this country and that it is special and created for a purpose.
Every year when I remember 9/11, and the attacks that happened that day, I feel like I am getting more and more emotionally attached to this country. Maybe this year is extreme because I wasn’t a citizen the years before, but something is very different today. Today I shared with my children what happened 14 years ago and I also showed them videos of what happened September 11th 2001. Talking about it and watching the event again, makes me choke up big time and I feel overwhelmed with emotions, it is totally crazy. My boys kept asking me: Why would anyone do that? Why would the pilots kill themselves and not jump out to save themselves? It is hard to explain to children how evil people can be and what Satan can and will do with those who willingly follow him. It is hard to explain how a few people can bring so much horror, heartache and pain into the world and not even care what will happen to them. It is something that we will probably not fully understand until we pass on to the next life.
Things are going to get worse as time goes by because evil is real and will not stop for anyone or anything, but we know that as long God is on our side (and we are on His) we can conquer anything we want to. In these troubled times I think about the things I read in the scriptures, the things I learn in church and even the things I read in books that have nothing to do with religion. J.K. Rowling’s Harry Potter comes to mind. And one of my all-time favorite quote is from Dumbledore: “Dark times lie ahead of us and there will be a time when we must choose between what is easy and what is right.” This is not just a quote for a fictional world, but for our world today and for times to come. We will have to choose based on what is easy and what is right and we need to make a decision now what we want to do.
One thing is certain though, God loves us and He loves us more than we can ever imagine. I know without a doubt that He was with those people who lost their lives 14 years ago. He was with everyone who lost a loved one that day and He is with us always. No matter how abandoned and lonely we feel, He is by our side and it is because of Him that I know good will win in the end. Trials and struggle will still be ahead of us, but the final outcome is already declared. That’s what gives me comfort and peace because I know that whatever happens, God is there for us and Satan will never win.