As I am sitting here, wondering what I should do on this beautiful Sunday afternoon, I thought maybe I should write on my blog again since I haven’t done that in quite a while. These past few weeks have been an emotional roller coaster, and maybe it will help if I write some of my thoughts down.
I still can’t believe that we are actually leaving in a few weeks and that we are moving to Germany for a few years. Sometimes it seems so real and other times like a dream. Of course I am excited to be closer to family and old friends, but I am leaving so many wonderful people behind. My family and I have loved living in San Diego and so it isn’t easy to go. Thinking about having to say goodbye to many soon, makes me really sad. I have always hated goodbyes and this is a big one because we have lived in San Diego for almost 12 years and in this area alone for 7 1/2 years. The friendships we created here are special and we truly love those we leave behind.
Trying to put my thoughts into words, thinking about everything that is ahead of us and looking for picture quotes that express how I am feeling, truly doesn’t make this easier. In fact it was rather foolish to look for pictures because now I am crying mess.
I love the beautiful people I have met while living here. Every created friendship, every build relationship means something to me and I just wish I could just put them all in my suitcase and take them with me. Unfortunately I can’t. No matter how much we hate it, goodbyes are part of life. 😥
Many new adventures await us, and I am excited that my family and I have the opportunity to experience many great things, but that doesn’t erase the sadness I feel about having to leave. We know it is the right thing to do, and where Heavenly Father wants us and needs us, but that only comforts us a little bit.
To all of you that are close to my heart: We love you and we will do our best to keep in touch.
Please know that, even though I try hiding it as long as possible, it is hard for me to leave and I know my whole family feels the same way. Thank you for all you have done for us. Thank you for your kindness, love and friendships. You mean more to us than you will ever imagine. Luckily we have a few more weeks and will try to get together, with anyone interested, as much as possible. Be warned though! When we have reached the time of the final goodbye, I might not be a tough cookie anymore. I probably shouldn’t wear make-up that day. 😉
Sometimes it is hard for me to find a good ending for my blog posts, but today I found something that ends it perfectly. Nicholas Sparks puts my feelings beautifully into words: “The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we’ve lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we’ve found each other. And maybe each time, we’ve been forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this goodbye is both a goodbye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come.”